That morning, September
18th, 2012, I found enough courage
to check my weight. I had moved to a new country, had
a new job and a new
life… And I wanted to do something about my health.
I found out that I weighed 98.2 kg. (216 Pounds)
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| September, 2nd, 2012 |
I was so shocked… It was like I suddenly realised how fat I was, as if I did not
see myself getting there, kilo after kilo…
After a few
hours I felt sad, depressed and useless.
I thought I was such a failure… Look at me! How come I did that
to myself? And why did I do that to myself?
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| July 27th, 2012 |
Of course I was aware that I was overweight
and even my friends and family had shared their concerns with me.
I always thought I would do something about it later… It was not the right
time… I have other things to do before… other things to take care of and to think about…
Since I was 20 years old, I
have always been struggling
with my weight… gain 5... lose 8… gain 12…lose 5… gain 10… lose 6… 10 years after my
first weight gain,
I was still there, struggling and addicted to food! What was wrong with me?
I did not want to try again… Why would it work
this time ?
‘’Because
I am with you now, you can not fail! You are my precious daughter, you are
fearfully and wonderfully made and look what you are doing with my perfect creation! Seriously!’’
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| August 4th, 2012 |
I just started to
believe that this time will be the one. I had come to a point where I had no other choice! My health was in
danger, I did not have the life I wanted… I was always tired, frustrated and
angry with myself because I was fat.
I wanted to
have a family of my own, but at the back of my mind I was very much aware of
the fact that I would gain weight during my pregnancy... So if I was 20 kilos overweight
now, after pregnancy I would have at least 30 kilos to lose.
On the 19th of September 2012, I decided to
take one year to take care of this problem. One year to change! I was a bit
scared but I walked remembering: you can not fail, you can not fail!
For the
last 10 years, I read many different books about diets, healthy life style and how
to cook right... So I knew that the most important was not to lose weight quickly
by doing a strict diet...
I wanted to start easy:
- Eat 3 times a day (nothing in between)
- Eat VARIED food that you enjoy
- Drink at least 1.5 L of water a day
- Write down in a notebook what you eat and your weight
(one of my friends agreed to have a look at it from time to time and comment)
In December 2012 I stopped recording my food intake in my note book, as I had now got used to my new eating patterns and was quite disciplined in this area and did not need the aid of my journal.
Eating what I love for breakfast, lunch and dinner helped me to
stop snacking. I thought ‘No I don’t need to have that muffin/bread/rice&curry
at break or in the middle of the afternoon, because in 1 hour I will have my delicious meal which I prepared for myself with
much care and love, which is both good for me as well as tasty :)
Of course, at the beginning What I liked was… Pasta with cheese, bread with cheese, cakes and chocolate. I still allowed myself to eat these
things and did not deprive myself of these, but as time went on, I was able to
opt for healthier substitutes for these foods which still tasted good
I was looking forward to my meal. That’s what helped me to quit and have
no interest in snacking. After a while my body was not even interested in any
food between meals. I have trained my body to change and to be hungry only 3
times a day.
Months
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lose/gain weight (kg)
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Present weight (kg)
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I have not reached the destination of my journey yet as I would like to lose about 5 kilos more but I can confidently say that I have won the battle against weight !!
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| May 3rd, 2013 |
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